Thanatos and Shouko // Private Thread for the Win

[itsnotaleash]

[Thanatos is outside Shouko's room at the dorms. He simply stands there for a moment before he takes a deep breath and finally knocks.] Hey, Shouko? It's me - Thanatos!

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[totsuka.livejournal.com]

Explaining?

[ A blink. ]

... Ah, you mean... about the whole Shadow thing?

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's right. You weren't the only one who didn't know I was a Shadow.

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

[ A slow nod as she sips her soda in silence. ]

It explains how you're able to see clearly, I guess.

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

It does a little... Though, Orpheus doesn't have a lot of trouble seeing in the fog either and I know that he's not a Shadow.

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

Hmm. That's strange, I notice you two were the only ones who didn't need glasses.

But... ah, how did it go? The explanation, I mean.

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

It went a lot better than I expected it would, to be honest ... It was still tough, though... A lot had to be told so it would make sense!

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

I see. I'm glad.

Would you mind giving me an explanation as well?

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't mind. Though it's a long story if I start from the beginning, exactly... So how about you ask me questions? I'll answer them truthfully, that I can promise to you.

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

Hmm. I'll try.

If you're a shadow, then... why are you so much like a human? You said that shadows were negative feelings manifesting in a physical form... yet I don't think you're negative at all.

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm not a normal Shadow. I used to be a mindless one, however I escaped from where I was being kept and I did a lot of damage... Even falling apart I was still too dangerous to defeat, and I was sealed away in a human child for ten years. One day I finally awoke inside of him, though I was an incomplete Shadow... So without knowing it I led him to collect the Shadows that I lost that were a part of me. Meanwhile, the time I spent inside of his subconscious allowed me to become his friend and so I began to pick up his human emotions.

When I finally became complete, I was able to leave his body to become who I am now. A Shadow with its own conscious. That's why I'm so human...

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

[ She sits in silence as he speaks, absorbing the information. ]

So... you only did those things because you didn't have a conscious mind, right? Not intentionally?

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

That's right. I have no desire to cause damage to anyone now.

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

You seem like a really nice guy. I trust you.

That's all I need to know, really.

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

[He blushes a little.] T-Thank you, Shouko. I'm glad you can still trust me even though I'm a Shadow.

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

Well, you haven't done anything to make me think otherwise. Even if you're a shadow, I can't hate you. All those things you've done are in the past, and as long as they don't repeat, there's no reason why we can't be friends.

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

Of course! We can always be friends.

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

I was surprised. A lot of people came, even though I don't even know most of them.

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

Well, I brought Orpheus and Yukari. I don't know about the others...!

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

Does this happen often?

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

It happens every once in awhile... I even had my own Shadow.

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

... How did that happen?

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

... It's hard to explain. I mean, you would think a Shadow couldn't have a Shadow. Right? However, I did...

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

...

Maybe that means you're turning into human?

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

I doubt that. No matter how human I am I'll always just be a Shadow.

[totsuka.livejournal.com]

If shadows are strictly humans' negative emotions, and you have one, doesn't that mean you're human in some ways?