No, it's not. [Slams cover closed. Then just going back to burying his face in his arms. Deep breaths, stay calm, can't get upset over this even though every word you say from here on out is treason to the rules of the Velvet Room.]
I don't see it that way. I just... All I can picture are the faces of the friends I've made. So just the thought of any one of you suffering... It's like standing and watching a part of my world get destroyed.
[Yes. Even though I'm not supposed to think that way. That being an assistant means I just have to stand aside and let that happen. But at least now it's obvious why he goes into an existential crisis whenever one of those Midnight Channel things happens. And you even got sentences out of it! Even though the last part is said barely above a whisper-] I don't mind ceasing to exist. As long as that world remains unharmed... I'm not important in comparison.
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Date: 2009-05-03 06:58 am (UTC)I don't see it that way. I just... All I can picture are the faces of the friends I've made. So just the thought of any one of you suffering... It's like standing and watching a part of my world get destroyed.
[Yes. Even though I'm not supposed to think that way. That being an assistant means I just have to stand aside and let that happen. But at least now it's obvious why he goes into an existential crisis whenever one of those Midnight Channel things happens. And you even got sentences out of it! Even though the last part is said barely above a whisper-] I don't mind ceasing to exist. As long as that world remains unharmed... I'm not important in comparison.