[Blink. ... So he already knew. So it was pointless to try avoiding him anyway. Hoping that it was just a temporary thing so that he'd never find out. Because what kind of messiah loses faith in those he saved? Especially in the manner that he did. He was always bitter. Having to stand on the side and watch as those very same people he saved just got worse - wished for their deaths and fueled Erebus even moreso. But he still had faith in them. Humanity can change, they can always change...
But when someone else makes you question that resolve...
That was the problem here. Not that he had given up entirely. Because even if he lost faith, he'd still put up a fight. Still stubborn to a frightening degree. Still willing to face off against a cosmic horror just because he refused to back down. But no. Instead, something happened that made him realize there was no point. You're just throwing your life away for a race that doesn't give a shit either way... so why bother?]
It's... not you. I... It's my...
["It's all my fault." Seizes momentarily, his entire frame convulsing just from the combination of Erebus and trying to push himself this far. Still trying his hardest to keep too much of it from touching down on Thanatos, even if it is starting to fail. Even if he's losing the strength to say anything else. Merely burying his face in the other's chest and a hand tightening in the fabric of his suit. Shaking, but still trying to hold it back. If only for his sake.]
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But when someone else makes you question that resolve...
That was the problem here. Not that he had given up entirely. Because even if he lost faith, he'd still put up a fight. Still stubborn to a frightening degree. Still willing to face off against a cosmic horror just because he refused to back down. But no. Instead, something happened that made him realize there was no point. You're just throwing your life away for a race that doesn't give a shit either way... so why bother?]
It's... not you. I... It's my...
["It's all my fault." Seizes momentarily, his entire frame convulsing just from the combination of Erebus and trying to push himself this far. Still trying his hardest to keep too much of it from touching down on Thanatos, even if it is starting to fail. Even if he's losing the strength to say anything else. Merely burying his face in the other's chest and a hand tightening in the fabric of his suit. Shaking, but still trying to hold it back. If only for his sake.]