Where did this come from I don't even // OPEN

[itsnotaleash]

Thanatos wasn't sure what was going on through his head when he stepped foot in front of this quite familiar door... It was still locked up tight with unbreakable chains, however, dark smoke continued to trickle out from the slight opening at the bottom. Had it really been seven months since he tried to destroy this door until Igor put the chains on it? He could even see the caution tape that had first been put on under the chains. As he set his hand against the door, he realized that lately, it felt like that same smoke trickled out from his own mind. There had been a while where he had true hope, hope he could save Orpheus from ceasing to exist... Until Orpheus started to avoid him, his nightmares became worse and the ancient books he read started to make less sense than usual. Without Orpheus working at his side Thanatos was working slower, without the usual enthusiasm... Once again in a state of utter uselessness.

See, Thanatos knew Orpheus was falling apart from the seams even if Orpheus thought he was oblivious. How could he not notice when he was connected to Orpheus in a way no one else was? He also knew it was all his fault, he had Orpheus promise him not to leave, but... As Orpheus lost hope, so did Thanatos. As much as he loved Orpheus, how could he save someone who didn't want to be saved, who wanted to just cease to exist? It hurt, knowing Orpheus would rather cease to exist then stay...

Thanatos cries out suddenly and wrenches his hand away from the now roaring with laughter door, bringing his hand up to his face as he watches it fade away into Shadow. That was all he was, wasn't he? A Shadow... Ameno-Sagiri's voice was still at the back of his head, booming loudly about the 'truth.'

He touches his still Shadow hand up to his face and finds he can't hold in the tears anymore. He drops to his knees, sobbing his heart out with no remorse. If Orpheus didn't want to be his Assistant, then no one wanted to. He was... A failure as a Fusionist. A failure as anyone... Except as a Shadow. ... No, that wasn't true. He was a failure as a Shadow, as well. He was never supposed to exist... Damn it, what happened to when he was happy with Orpheus...?

"Orpheus, I just didn't want to be alone like this... I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Comments

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

"How could I tell him that in person if he keeps avoiding me in the first place?"

[delavie.livejournal.com]

"...he won't be able to avoid you forever."

Because uh, sooner or later - if she figured right - he won't be able to move at all.

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

"He's sure trying to..."

[delavie.livejournal.com]

"Come on, be logical," she cajoles, leaning against a nearby doorframe. "You know he always comes back to you. It might just take...a long time, right?"

"Don't - " She snaps her mouth shut at this. How much does Thanatos know of how much she knows? Saying don't lose hope was just prolonging the pain. "...maybe you should move away from that door, Thanatos."

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

"Y-Yeah... He always comes back to me."

So why did he still sound so hollow inside as he spoke? There was definitely something else going on here that Thanatos didn't have any control over at the moment. Anyway, he looks back at the door and frowns. "There's no way I'm getting inside of that door ... Not while it's chained like that. ...Those are unbreakable."

[delavie.livejournal.com]

"So you're saying if it's unlocked, you'd go inside, then?"

It looks like the last Door of the Abyss, and she doesn't like it.

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

"I would go inside and fight Erebus...

Do something useful for once."

[delavie.livejournal.com]

"...fight Erebus?"

That draws a blank. She doesn't know anything about Erebus, only about Nyx and Elizabeth and -

"What? Who's Erebus?"

[itsnotaleash.livejournal.com]

"Yes, fight Erebus. If you don't know who Erebus is, then you aren't supposed to know..."

However, some convincing will most likely get him to talk. Especially in this state where Erebus is... Everywhere.