Thanatos and Orpheus // Private Thread for the Win

[itsnotaleash]

[When the pageant was over, Thanatos didn't bother to stick around any longer than he had to. Ameno-Sagiri's words still boomed in the back of his conscious as if the other Shadow was still right there. To Thanatos, anything that was once familiar made no sense. Just when he finally began to accept he was Death... More had to happen that would cause him to feel uncomfortable about his existence. Was his heart really nothing more than just a lie? He had been so happy at the pageant. Yet, it seems happiness was only temporary when you were Death incarnate. So here Thanatos was, all alone, with a serving of unagi don in his hands to try and settle his stomach. Unfortunately, the sweet taste of eel wasn't making him feel any better. A glance outside then made him feel even worse. The fog was still in sight.]

... Lies hurt just as much as the truth? Yeah, right.

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... Wait, don't leave me alone...

[clockstopped]

[Gone from your line of vision, but the tell-tale clicking stops. And hesitates. Then resumes again, but slower. And also heading back until it stops right behind the bench yet again. Come on, composure composureeeee. Which doesn't help since the voice cracks anyway.]

I won't... Not yet. I promise.

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Then stay here with me for now.

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[Doesn't say anything, but moves to sit on the end of the beck, eyes closed and head bowed. Mutual distance, sigh.]

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[Sets the unagi don to his side and then scoots closer to Orpheus. Have a Thanatos leaning onto your shoulder.]

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[Enjoy your gratuitous cleavage! D-size brand, no less. Though this one doesn't notice. Simply rests her head on top of his, a few stray blue strands falling into the other's line of vision.]

I-... I'm sorry for not telling you...

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...It's all right ...I mean, what could you have told me? I would have felt this way no matter what.

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I would rather have told you than that...... [AUGH, GOING TO KICK YOUR ASS AMENO.]

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Ameno-Sagiri... I have to stop him from doing what he wants. He says Mankind's desires are his desires. That's... Utter bullshit. Shadows should just stop deciding the fate of humans!

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That's not our place. That would be Seta's.

... But if Shadows are a form of repressed emotion, then... [Quiet sigh. Though the shoulder you're chilling on tenses. Thinking of a certain goat bastard on this part.] If that's how humanity feels, then all we can do is keep that desire from coming to pass.

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It's not our place to do anything anymore... I know.

I just don't understand why Erebus exists. Why do humans not love life as much as I do? I'm a Shadow! I shouldn't even love in the first place!

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As long as you understand.

........ [Can't answer what we don't know the answer to. :<<<]

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... [Clutches at his face.] I have to do something... Anything!

I won't just let you cease to exist.

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[Not again sigh. Wraps an arm around him in a half hug while the other grabs one his hands to pull it away. Stop that.] You don't have to do anything.

There's nothing that can be done... And I'm fine with that. You should be, too.

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How can you be fine with that? [Just kind of slumps with his free hand still clutching at his face. His hope is draining now with those words.] I was supposed to be the one who took you to your true Death. Now I can't even do that!

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[That's the thing - he's not fine with it. It's why you get nothing but silence for an answer, though the grip on his shoulder tightens a bit.]

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... I'm so sorry. When it comes down to it... All of this is my own fault.

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I know... But don't say things like that. I never once blamed you.

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You should... I was always there in return for your whole world... I was a leech on your soul. I know I didn't do any of that on purpose... Yet, that's what it comes down to. Your life became mine!

Then I became Nyx... You lost your life a second time. I can't let it happen a third. It should be mine for once!

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.......... Did Ameno-Sagiri say that?

[And lets go of your hand to snatch at your scarf and-- stops. Lowering his head so his eyes are hidden and that faint shaking is back again. Composure, damnit, composure! DX] I said don't say things like that! You don't deserve that kind of...

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... He did.

[At first he winces, waiting for the scarf around his neck to tighten. Instead he watches Orpheus worriedly.] ... I just ... Want to make it up to you.

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[He did? I'll kill him for this I'll kill him buts it goes unsaid as there's suddenly tits smish'd against your arm and your neck in a death vice from both arms around it and a face buried in your shoulder as warm tears go about staining your suit. RYOJI YOU IDIOT SO MAD IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY ;;] You don't have anything to make up for to me...

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[Assistant is crying! Also, can't breathe. Though, more importantly, ASSISTANT IS CRYING. Shifts a bit to wrap his own arms around Orpheus' waist and holds onto him as tight as possible.] That's not true... I owe you everything...!

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[That slight shift is enough to save your trachea from any further damage, even though he's still latched onto like life-support. And can't say anything, doesn't trust himself to, just a harsh shaking of his head into your shoulder while the rest of his form shakes with silent tears.]

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[Continues to clutch onto Orpheus. Thanatos settles his cheek against the soft blue hair as Orpheus moves his head back and forth. His own tears flow, but they're also silent even as droplets fall from his face. What could he say now? All he could do was act. He had to find a way so neither of them would be alone. After all... Without his Other... His 'fake' heart would always hurt. He remains still for awhile to let Orpheus sob.]

It's true... Thank you, Orpheus.