Thanatos and Orpheus // Private Thread for the Win

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[When the pageant was over, Thanatos didn't bother to stick around any longer than he had to. Ameno-Sagiri's words still boomed in the back of his conscious as if the other Shadow was still right there. To Thanatos, anything that was once familiar made no sense. Just when he finally began to accept he was Death... More had to happen that would cause him to feel uncomfortable about his existence. Was his heart really nothing more than just a lie? He had been so happy at the pageant. Yet, it seems happiness was only temporary when you were Death incarnate. So here Thanatos was, all alone, with a serving of unagi don in his hands to try and settle his stomach. Unfortunately, the sweet taste of eel wasn't making him feel any better. A glance outside then made him feel even worse. The fog was still in sight.]

... Lies hurt just as much as the truth? Yeah, right.

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[In contrast to the emokid, this one was on a warpath. After ALL OF THAT TORMENT, he- well, she now - was stuck in this body. The corset was unneeded seeing as the evening gown he was in last now fit perfectly. Except for the upper half, where anyone could easily be distracted by SUDDEN CLEAVAGE. orzorzorz DAMN EVERYTHING THAT EXISTS.]

[The heels clicking angrily should be the first warning. The gender switch mixed with the fact that idiot ran off again is enough to make the anger in the air almost palpable. But it's instantly neutralized by the glimpse of a yellow scarf and its depressed owner. ... Quietly walks up behind and looks over the bench at him, blue hair now dancing along the edge of his shoulders and voice just a few notes higher than usual.]

Is something wrong, sir?

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[The fact Thanatos jerked up at the sudden voice in his ear gave the obvious assumption he had been utterly zoned out while sitting there in his woe. Once he noticed the blue hair of an Orpheus, he closed up once again and his unagi don became very interesting to look at. What was he supposed to say? "Sorry, but I'm just a lie. Leave a message?"]

... No.

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[You know, that kind of reaction just makes him her more worried. Have a moment of :| before the heels clicking yet again as the warning before an assistant is sitting next to you.]

Talk.

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[He looks over towards the window and sighs.] I went wandering through the fog the day before. Not on purpose! I was just heading towards the Mall from the dorm. Anyway... I heard Erebus. I tried to find him through the fog, but I found this other Shadow. His name was Ameno-Sagiri.

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[Sir, did you pay attention to ANYTHING during Souji's journey?]

Don't chase after any more noises.

What happened?

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[No. Too busy being trained by Igor and fleeing from Elizabeth.]

We had a conversation ...

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About...?

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... Well, he's like Nyx...

So, he knew who I was.

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...

[Sigh before business-mode kicks in to keep from beating him with a compendium on reflex.]

Master Thanatos, please give a concise answer or just tell me upfront that you do not wish to speak to me upon this matter.

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... [Flinches.]

Ameno-Sagiri told me that the heart I have is a lie. That my existence was tainted from living inside of you for ten years.

Then he said that ... The Seal was going to shatter and I would lose you. You would cease to be... Lost forever because of Erebus...

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[Chokes a bit at the second part, lifting a hand to cough into a few times before speaking. Let's... let's just see if he catches us ignoring that. D: orz] Well... it was "tainted" if you think of it from the eyes of a Shadow. ...But I don't think that's a bad thing. I like you this way.

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[That coughing was so obvious. Even Thanatos could catch that as his heart clenches. Suddenly, he can't hold it in anymore and he starts to sob.] You're right. I... I mean, if my heart was a lie, it wouldn't hurt so much right now. Isn't that right?

I care about you so much...

So ... Why didn't you tell me?

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[Wince as he starts to cry and then has to look away. That hurts more than anything else, and to know you're the cause of it? Just... ugh. Way to take a knife to the ribs and twist it, Ryoji.]

That's right... [Man what do you even say to that? Same tone as always, but now quieter and cracking just the slightest bit towards the end.] I know. I just... Didn't want you to know...

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Well, now I know...

It doesn't matter that I'm a Shadow with a heart... I'll lose you.

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[The words stumble at first, but even out to just slightly slower then rapid-fire. Because once it's all said, then he's going to start sobbing again and you won't be able to say a thing. Still not looking though, that would the the last nail in the metaphorical coffin.]

That's why I keep telling you not to rely on me so much. You need to understand that I don't want you follow me not because I don't want you there... It's because you have your own life and you need to find your own reason for living. Not using another as an excuse... I just wish you had figured that out on your own.

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O... Orpheus... You can't just cease to exist. I won't allow that to happen!

I mean ... How am I supposed to find my reason for living when it's already been laid out for me? My only purpose was to welcome the Fall. So without you... The one who gave me this heart... What am I? I wouldn't be a Shadow and I wouldn't be a human... Even Igor wouldn't want anything to do with me if you weren't there as my Assistant.

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Igor explained the situation when I first came back. We both thought it was best you didn't know until you were ready..... But there's nothing you can do.

[Not looking at him doesn't help. The voice is still enough to a guilt trip to make his her shoulders start shaking before standing up.] I'm not the one who can give you those answers... Just try and come back tonight?

[And then a brisk attempt to leave. It was already bad enough to crack in front of Miwako, but... she stayed quiet about it. He didn't know a thing. In front of Thanatos as he is now is... no, just in front of him at all is unforgivable.]

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... Wait, don't leave me alone...

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[Gone from your line of vision, but the tell-tale clicking stops. And hesitates. Then resumes again, but slower. And also heading back until it stops right behind the bench yet again. Come on, composure composureeeee. Which doesn't help since the voice cracks anyway.]

I won't... Not yet. I promise.

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Then stay here with me for now.

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[Doesn't say anything, but moves to sit on the end of the beck, eyes closed and head bowed. Mutual distance, sigh.]

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[Sets the unagi don to his side and then scoots closer to Orpheus. Have a Thanatos leaning onto your shoulder.]

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[Enjoy your gratuitous cleavage! D-size brand, no less. Though this one doesn't notice. Simply rests her head on top of his, a few stray blue strands falling into the other's line of vision.]

I-... I'm sorry for not telling you...

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...It's all right ...I mean, what could you have told me? I would have felt this way no matter what.

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I would rather have told you than that...... [AUGH, GOING TO KICK YOUR ASS AMENO.]